where is my happy??

i very long not use english wrote my blog already XD

haiz,i dunno why i cant find my happy...
in my life just got the madness,hate,revenge,unhappy,not satisfied...
i cant even have a nice sleep...
before sleep always imagine that how i revenge,but always just can imagine only....
that thing is effect me alot,can say so many thing happen,that thing is most serious in my life...

not longer just break up with friend.....
he like do thing i dislike thing,like that suffer rather break up...
he now friend is quite many,cause he is rich guy...
can always请吃...

rela duty i also dun want out....
always gave excuse say busy...
the puan still ask me,now me is cannot out already??
i dont want out duty cause of the damn puan!
that thing happen why u want saying lie????
i know,he is tuan..but he doing thing is damn shit....
not happen at you,you wont understand....
i hope i faster get the pass,i wont hear your phone and your damn voice!

ghee xiang tomorrow(17/5) date me go back to佛堂....
sorry dude,i know i go back there will ask me many thing...
i lazy to explain and pretend i am nothing,i am fine....
maybe you ask me again,i will agree(but hope dont ask me again)

i always gave my around people laugh,but do i got really laugh????
my problem wont effect around me person,
because i dont want cause of me let around me person unhappy either worry~
that thing effect me alot,i haven't recover it....
but better than before....
no people know i haven't recover it...
i guess everone know i am fine and fully recover...
because i dont want let care about me person worry me,especially my parent...