yeah! My re test car already past!

todays 22jan 2009 i feel happy><
first,i already had past my re test car
second, today i had not any to sad!
third, soon holiday for chinese new year.But chinese new year for me, i not really happy lo..
many thing to do! ~hopping tomorrow will better~And happy chinese new year~

just figure out i am sacred lose!

Before i always thought my character is like win,but now i figure out my character is not like win is sacred lose...13 january 2009 i fail my examination car,when i know the result i am upset..
Feel why i cant pass! just know to blame only...and then the next days i not go school...
and the next whole days is wasted!Just know to sleep and eat,other else don't care about it...
i feel like i am trying to avoid..not have the brave to attempt!
when i have the problem i will lose my confident and not brave to attempt,try to avoid!Why i will like that one,same like a coward :(

first day go school of form 5!( boring)

today 5/1/09 is i my first day go school of my form 5.today i am quite boring lo! At class, i not topic talk with my classmate, they some will take about game,either some will sleep!At class dunno do what,teacher also not in class!Today i also got meet my junior(promise at msn) first time i go find her, her not there! second time i go find her, her at there but her shy then run away!
aiyo today i dunno do what eh! Today i also got learn car,but my trainner car damage.So 4:30pm-6:30pm learn time change to 7pm-9pm! i 10pm++ still back...( so late still back)!

in 2009 year my first thing so bad luck and sad!( feel self useless)

today is 2009 january 3 saturday. Ring ring ring, my alarm clock call me wake up!! 7:45am already, Oh my god, i am late! Today i got join my first class of karatedo , i join the karatedo because my parent and brother encouraged me to join! I at my school smk bagan jaya learn, my brother also at there too.I feel so embarrass because just only me white belt only! I also serious learn my karatedo basic!After than,i got a part time job work at krico as temporary promoter,doing sampling nescafe classic .And my unlucky time is coming to me(sad), i have meet the weird and stubborn customer.I server him, i give him a half cup of nescafe( cup is quite big lo!) and him dont wan! he wan full,i am using a nice word to talk to him! 'Sorry, This is our campany rule, just let you try the taste only,if you wan more you can buy a packet' He dont hear and then say wan give full can or not, i say cant! then he damn crazy say give you drink yourself then he take the coffee throw to my apron and shirt!After that i am rare cant endure he anymore, so we are quarrel! bla bla bla, quarrel quarrel quarrel!!!!( too much! dunno how to say)
And the kirco AJK come scold me,why me trade as the customer like that!( what la! that was no fault leh!!!) he also got report to my supervisor( when after happen that i also had call told my supervisor already!!!( my supervisor say he can handle for me!)
haiz, i atlass also lose because customer is always right! I really wanted to hit him,but i not have because i sacred losing my job! The other promoter ask me 'why u dont wan hit him, him damn crazy and trade u like that!' they say like that i feel i am coward

Do i am coward?
Do i am useless?
Do i do like that is true or false?
If false,what suppost i do?

2009 already, thinking about my pass year...

2009 years i already 18 years old! study form 5( got study remove) this year will exam spm!
today is first day of 2009! thinking back when i 12 years old...my upsr bm essay fail so wanna study remove( really wasted 1 year) when the holiday i got do a part time job, per week do 1 days only( that job was my first time job and is not worth job i do!) form 7am do unil 3pm jz rm 10 only...
in 1 sunday i go to there work,and i also had already get the upsr result.My sister also got work at there too..and then my sister friend ask me,how about my upsr result? i tell her...and then her knw my bm essay fail,so her ask ur bm essay fail so need study remove ,right? then i say yes, her means that i wan wasted 1 year!( i am not very happy,maybe i small gas) so i have a childist answer her study remove only got a big deal?Then her scold me back, ur sis and bro not study remove you got, u not embarrassment? ( that time i really embarrassment) then my mum dont wan me wasted 1 year, her say wan try to apply dont let me study remove( i say my mum back,study remove have a big deal, need to so trouble?)that time i think my mum was so sad when i say that word! :( i think my mum got try to apply , but is fail! so i got study remove!!! study remove year i am just playing only never got study!when i 13,14,15 years old my body side will quite small, so many people like to bully me( hate that!!)
so when i form 3 (16 years old) i wan to stop people bully me again, and wan show off to let them knw i will never give whos was before bully me to bully me again! When they wan bully me, i will quarrel or argue more serious will fighting. I remember when i form 3 thats year i got fight with school sudent got 7 time! ( damn so much)
and my pmr result also not good..even is not fail but not have A!!
when i form 4( last year) i got annoy wanted to in what class,should i in science strem or account?But atlass i in science strem(but was quite late,when i in the science strem already february)why i wan in science strem( so hard to study!)because my family support,study science strem when grow up can get a better job!(But i get many fail! cant catch up!) And i also wan to stop my stubborn behave, so i will always to control when i wan quarrel with people! But i fail, when that guy come to disturb me,peli me either what wan doing me angry...i just can endure once or second time only, when the third i cant time endure any more! Actually, last year i just quarrel once time only( not bad), but i hate my school teacher name pn.lim[ penolong kanan (hem) ] because when that time i quarrel with that guy, i felt the pn.lim is support him, is helping him...when i form 4 that year i will not hear her say what, and also anti her! hm...do i do that is right? should i 2009 wan anti her again? do i can let go all of my revenge? And now important is study good( get a good result of spm!) i hopping all i can do><
before i am doing many wrong,hope this year don't wan do any wrong again! regret is useless!