五年后第一次参加青少年活动

Today 22Feb2009, Today i not really enough sleep.around 1am sleep around 5:45am wake up already,because today i got with my friend join the youth activities....
About the youth activities i had 5 year not join already...
today ply and competition very fun,very long not had that fun already...
actually, when i reach there, i also dunno what happen...at there i sometime will embarrassment ,because at there younger i all dunno just except my 1 friend only...
anyway i felt i at there in younger i am older lo..all is 12-17,got 18years old or not i not sure..
the competition is team one, i am is the team leader maybe i am older,then my friend is my

Assistant.And my team name is minor army(is me think out one><) At lass my team also get number one,Yeah is very awesome!
Then after finish, i back home time around 1.45pm,after back home i got to my bed sleep already..
Then around 6pm wake up again..
when i wake up, i will think about my yesterday i am too greed losing many thing and get many trouble felt no worth....(HOPE I CAN FORGET THOSE THING!!MANY OF PEOPLE MORE WORSE THAN ME!!)

today i wan kick my asshole

today 21Feb2009, today i losing many think and get many trouble because i am too Greed..
i am really regret for i am so greed, but regret also useless...really wanna kick my asshole!
so only i can do is put down of it, all is my fault.If wan blame just can blame my self,so let it go through, forget all of it..don let self sad~

A new day will have a new life,my road i should walking in front don't step back again...( I CAN DO IT,YEAH)

always alone valentine days

today 14feb2009, is valentine day.Many of couple will happy...
when i saw some body have girl/boy friend i will jealous.Jealous they can holder their dear hand,kiss their dear and huge with heir dear.
I already 18 years old,when i will have my dear?
But i hear somebody say have a girl friend,boys wallet will bankrupt! wan buy many thing to give girl friend.If on a special either important days boys wallet more easy bankrupt, example today valentine day,boy need buy flower,chocolate,dress either other thing to attract girl...
but i feel if wan buy those thing to self most love people is worth one,but dont always.hehe
Today i got do a part time work at Giant Prima Prai, i have meet with my form 1 and form 2 bahasa melay teacher her is cina and her is a good teacher(her change to other school already).Her told me,my spm must get good result dont let her disappointed and especial bahasa melay,if fail will not get the certificate.

When i can get a girl friend?
Do i suitable to have a girl friend, can disturb my study?
Do i can get a good result for my spm,and i can handle all of my eleven subject wanted to exam spm.especially bahasa melay,mos important one if fail equal die!
Do my all dream can come true?

still cant put down my revenge and dunno why will not mood to study!!

today 11Feb2009, i am happy? no!
i now still cant put down my revenge!Just a small matter i will rage,even that was teacher...
today i quarrel with teacher and i also threaten him say careful his car!Dunno why i will with the small matter , i will so easy to rage cant to endure!Today i will got a examination chinese to in my school chinese class,but i quarrel with that i hate teacher.the chinese teacher also see that,haiz, my image already bad!Dunno can in or not also dunno...

Do i can change my temper?
Do i can put down all off my revenge?
and do i can pass my chinese paper?
i hope all i can done it, but.......